a lustal death

i am strung like beads
on a thin thread
collecting water from the air
waiting for the Second Coming
perhaps even the First

let the Salvations follow
and I will interpret them
one by one

you were elusive

and I
merely impatient

i want to crawl into Someone's Mind
taste the thoughts and touch the walls
run my fingers over wandering lines
watch emotions dissolve
and empty themselves

but the shelled Body
lies out of reach
its skin gleaming
its muscles of perfect orchestration
singing silent symphonies
and striking chords that resonate
in the very marrow of my bones

love poems are too easy to write
flowering prettily before the paper
but your physical truths
are slippery, and
they chasm before me
rifts opening canyons deepening

so i will write about the way
i can feel the bones in your hips
and the way tiny hairs on your skin
glow sinfully
when brisk light dusts over them

then I startle
and you become a statue
a movement of leaves
the way light plays across the street

like an echo

i've lost it